I'm gonna paste this from my Facebook account, because it has to do with my talent too... somehow...
"Before I go on ranting about this, I just wanted to say, Don't be offended by what I say on this. This is clearly my own opinion on my own life, and I don't need a bunch of people, pissing or bleeding they're pants on this topic.
There's times when I can say very heartwarming stuff about people, but then there's this other side. I can think and say bad things to saying the most graphic/horrible things on people.
Ex. "Your abortion is funny".
Is it my fault? Yes.
Am I ashamed of Myself? Mostly likely Yes.
Do I hate my life? Yes... I do...
Because I never made my parents proud of me, while I somehow make their life hell. I'm weak, I'm short, I'm ugly, but frankly, I'm not ashamed of it. But, my life before, I am ashamed of. I used to smash windows, I cross rapids, I beat up an animal when I was 8 (don't worry, I never hit an animal since), I skipped school, I lied, when I was 10 I straight up called my Mom a fucker, i stepped on a rusty nail, and never got a needle & still living this day, its horrible. I cry myself to sleep and then I wake up feeling nothing.
Am I ashamed of being native? This may shock & offend alot of people but, yes I am. I mean, I am part white, so I rather go as being White. I don't hate my skin being native, I just want to avoid racial comments and its clearly my own choice that shouldn't be judged, and I'll be real here, I don't want people banging on some drum when I'm dead...
Is clearly my fault? Yes.
Did I had a proper role model? No. I had no friends, I was teased, its awful, but I never had a best friend,, til 2007.
Nowadays, I get hit, sad & depressed, and whenever I say sorry to my parents its always, "Your never sorry", "Don't feel bad!" Or something.
What I'm trying to say is, I'm very sorry to anyone that was offended, crying, or mad at me. I don't want people thinking this is some attention post or whatever, I'm saying this, because I never get to speak it out of my mouth, because I'm scared of being wronged by people.
Again, I am very sorry to anyone that was offended, harassed, crying, mad, etc, at me for what I did and/or say in my life...
If you wanna have a laugh on this, I am suffering and hurting... Lol...?"
I'm sorry, everyone... and even to you, the reader... I really wish I wasn't like this... again, I'm very sorry... </3